I am hesitant, to do this.Something like this, opening up, is extremely personal, and with the exception of the Almighty, and my wife, I just do not trust anyone that much. People have a real weakness. They can be your best friend and with virtually no warning become your enemy for life over the most minor thing. They scare me. I do not show who I really am to people.Not unless i trust them. Thats for people I know I can trust. Basics. I am 51. I was a Christian. Now I guess you can call me a God fearer.I want to learn . In doing so I have to be frank.I aill stay as long as I feel welcome, or util I sense my ego is responding . I want to learn not make people regret knowing me.I can add more later.